BFP...and hello, 2nd Trimester???

Well, it's been a heck of a long time since I last blogged. It's not because of a lack of things going on, that is for sure!

On June 28, I met my friend Courtney for lunch and we were talking babies. At that point, I was 12dpo and really didnt think I was having normal AF type symptoms so I thought maybe I would test. Steve ended up taking that day off because he wasn't feeling well but went to visit his parents when I got home from lunch with my recently purchased tests. I tested on my own and...lo and behold..there were two lines!! I waited patiently (ok, not patiently) for him to get home and shared the news! Of course, we were both so excited!!

We had planned dinner with our parents that night and it was a perfect night to tell them our news! Everyone was so excited!!

At 7w1d, we had a viability ultrasound and it went very well! We got to see the baby's heartbeat beating and our LO was actually measuring ahead! great news!!

At 10w, we had our first apt with our OB. Again, our appointment went great! I was measuring perfect and got to hear the heartbeat! That was the best sound in the world!!

Unfortunately, at 10.5w, I had a bit of spotting and they had me come in to make sure everything was alright. It was!! Mom came with me and we got to hear the heartbeat again!! The spotting eventually stopped, thankfully!

The 1st trimester was filled with all kinds of nerves, sickness, fatigue, etc but I knew that meant my little baby was growing and thriving! Many days I was pretty uncomfortable but I wouldnt have changed it for the world!!

On Thursday, Sept 3, I finally entered the 2nd trimester and finally, my symptoms started to settle. Some things still make me nauseous (milk!!) and my energy is still low but I am feeling better!

We were able to find the baby's heartbeat on Saturday the 5th with our at home doppler! So exciting!!

Today, we had our 14w appointment and everything went well! Baby's heartbeat was 162bpm!!

I can't wait to start feeling kicks and get a baby belly as opposed to the bloat belly I have now!! :) We were also able to schedule our big ultrasound for Oct 12! Can't wait to find out if we will be expecting a boy or a girl! Hopefully our baby cooperates!!

I plan to be a much better blogger in the future! Right now, Steve and I are off to start cleaning out the nursery! Holy crap! Is this baby really coming??? YES!!!

At My Wits End

I know I am over-reacting but I honeslty feel like I am at my wits end with this pregnancy. God, I really want my baby to survive and thrive but I seriously don't know anymore. I have spent the week on the couch with my feet up and I am STILL spotting. I seriously dont even know what to do anymore except for cry. I have got yet another call into the OB and I am waiting for her to call me back but seriously, what is she going to be able to do? Nothing. I just want someone to tell me that my baby will survive and then I will be able to endure anything. Right now though, I feel like I am just delaying the inevitable and I feel awful.

I know crying and being upset isnt helping anything but I just cant help it. Not to mention, I still dont feel good. This is definitely not how I envisioned my pregnancy going.

I really miss Steve right now. I wish he was home with me but he needed to work. I just feel so helpless right now. I just keep praying the spotting will end and I can start enjoying pregnancy again. One hour at a time...

8 weeks...and of course, issues.

I am going to bypass my "8 weeks" post in light of all the issues we are having this week...it's the perfect trifecta, that is for sure.

Last Friday, I came down with a righteous sinus infection that is still going on. I coughed my ass off all weekend and even made a few comments to others that "I am coughing so much, I am going to cough this baby right out!".

Well, on Monday morning, I woke up to heavy spotting, extremely light flow. ugh, just wonderful. I, of course, called the OB right away and they rushed me in for an ultrasound. By the time I made it to my appointment about an hour later, the flow had stopped and I had light spotting. The tech did the ultrasound but because my bladder wasn't full, it was hard for her to get a clear picture. After a little bit of negotiating, she found our little bean...heart beating strong and measuring perfectly at 8 weeks. I was, of course, over joyed but so sick that I could barely hold my head up. OB's explanation was either implantation or that there could be a little blood behind the placenta that needed to come out. Ugh, I am not sure but all I know is that the bleeding/spotting has stopped and I am taking it easy. Not straying to far from the couch these days....

This sinus infection is just kicking my ass. I went to my regular doc on Monday for this and she decided, knowing that I was 8 weeks pregnant and having issues, to give me tylenol with codeine to help me rest. I took the piece of paper with something in my mind flickering but again, too sick to be my own advocate. When I mentioned it to my good friend Casey, she immediately told me to call the OB because the codeine is a narcotic. I called the OB and he told me to absolutely not take it. Greeeaaaatttt. I am sticking with my tylenol and Robitussin DM. Finally, I am starting to feel a bit better. My goal is to sleep in my bed tonight instead of propped up on the couch!

Lastly, Steven came in yesterday and told me not to worry (he knew I already was pretty fragile) but that we had a major leak in the roof....to the point where he had to pull up the carpet in the spare bedroom and has to go up in the attic and empty the bucket every few hours. We called the condo association but there wont be much they can do until everything melts. Thankfully, Steve is handling it and I am basically just choosing to not go in the spare bedroom and look because if I don't, it's not happening, right?? :)

All in all, it's been another stressful week and to be honest, I am not even a litle bit excited for the pregnancy anymore. I hope that as we go over the next few weeks, it will get better but right now, I am trying my best to be positive but the excitement is completely gone. I feel like I am being robbed of the pregnancy experience but it is what it is.

I may be just one of those special people that bleed/spot during their pregnancy. I may miscarry. Who knows at this point. All I know is that today I am pregnant and I love my baby. I read that on someone else's blog a while back and it really stuck with me.

Keep praying, my peeps!

Our ultrasound this morning!

This morning, we had an ultrasound to make sure the baby was progressing as it should because of the issues I was having earlier in the pregnancy. Our appointment was at 10am and I was feeling a little stressed on the way to the hospital. It's just that this little one already means so much to me and I was so hopeful and anxious to see that heartbeat!

Steven came with me in the room and within 30 seconds of starting the ultrasound, the tech found the baby and, to our absolute joy, the heartbeat! Steven and I were just amazed to see that tiny flicker on the screen...it was SO amazing and I felt a wave a relief just wash over me. Steven was thrilled as well and he said that it made everything seem more real for him.

The tech also informed us that the little one was measuring exactly at 7 weeks...he/she is .68 of a centimeter long! The ultrasound went perfect and we are just overjoyed. I keep staring at the pictures they gave us and it's amazing that I could love something so small so much. :)

We took the pics over to mom and dad's and they were both overjoyed as well. We just feel so absolutely blessed and pray every night that the Lord keeps this little one safe and progressing.

Here are the pics of our little one:

On the pregnancy front, today the morning sickness has kicked in. If I am not starving (even after eating), I feel like I am going to hurl and my stomach is upset. It's funny how my stomach goes from upset to hungry, back to upset in about 2 minutes. I don't care though...it just means our baby is growing!

Next OB appointment will be at the 9 week mark, February 9th. Perhaps after then, I may feel more comfortable letting others know.

Have a fabulous Monday everyone!

6 Weeks!

Today, I am 6 weeks! From www.babycenter.com:How your baby's growing: This week's major developments: The nose, mouth, and ears that you'll spend so much time kissing in eight months are beginning to take shape. If you could see into your uterus, you'd find an oversize head and dark spots where your baby's eyes and nostrils are starting to form. His emerging ears are marked by small depressions on the sides of the head, and his arms and legs by protruding buds. His heart is beating about 100 to 160 times a minute — almost twice as fast as yours — and blood is beginning to course through his body. His intestines are developing, and the bud of tissue that will give rise to his lungs has appeared. His pituitary gland is forming, as are the rest of his brain, muscles, and bones.

Right now, your baby is a quarter of an inch long, about the size of a lentil bean:

September 15 & Other Ramblings

September 15.
9/15.

This day is a pretty important day in my life. I love this day. Things that have/are happening:

• I bought my condo on 9/15/03. I recently found the papers when looking for the name of my inspector for Nicholas and that date popped out at me.
• I married Steven 9/15/07. The best day of my life so far.
• Our baby is due 9/15/09. When I was in the hospital last weekend, they pushed my date forward 3 days to 9/15. How cool is that!

As for the pregnancy, I am feeling a ton better than I felt this same time last week. I haven't spotted/bled in almost a week and I am starting to feel excited for the pregnancy again. I hope I can continue to feel this way. :)

Tomorrow, I start week 6. I feel like I have been in the 5th week forever...and I have! Since when does a week last 10 days? When you think you are 5w1d and they backdate you to 4w5d! I just feel like time is moving at a snail's pace. I am sure though as I start getting back to my normal routine, it will pick up again. I hope so at least!

On the homefront, Steven and I are enjoying his new birthday present...a new LCD HD TV. He loves it and I have to say...I do too. I have a feeling Grey's Anatomy is going to look awesome on this TV. ;) Good times.

Happy MLK day everyone!

81. Start a Family.

On Saturday, 1/3/09, my sister and I were scheduled for a massage and since I heard getting a massage in the 1st trimester is bad, I decided to test and rule it out. To my shock, the test (and multiple tests thereafter) came back positive!!!!!

Of course, Steven was working that day and I couldn't wait for him to get home! He finally arrived home after a long day at work and I surprised him with a gift! I wrapped a little onesie I made him along with the pregnancy test. He opened it and was in total shock! It was a great moment. He was thrilled and more than a little nervous. :)

We then decided to tell our parents with a onesie as well. Both sets are beyond thrilled and my mom even started crying she was so excited. Here is a picture of the onesies I made (Steven's has the number 88 on the back for his favorite NASCAR driver):


Due date is 9/12/09. Only a few days from our 2nd anniversary. We couldn't be more excited!!